If you've ever felt like you got on the struggle bus too early and ow seem to get off at any exit, this post is for you. If you've ever felt all alone in a big big world, this post is for you. If you've tried to please the world and have fallen short every.single.time, this post is for you. If you've ever starved yourself to feed an image of perfection, this post is for you. Hi, my name is Sarahbeth and I have felt/done all of these things. Being loved, knowing you're loved, and living loved are all very very different things. 1. If you are a living human being on planet earth I promise you are loved by someone, not just a someone, the creator of the freaking world. how cool is that? 2. Love shouldn't stop at knowing you're loved. I knew in my mind that God loved me and that my parents and friends loved me, but I had no heart knowledge of the matter and therefore struggled imensely with loving myself. These 3 pictures above were taken at times when physically I was skinniest. These 3 pictures were taken at times when mentally I was lonliest ( even amongst the friends in the pictures) and spiritually I was dead inside. At this time in my life I was obsessed with perfection. Perfect in school, perfect in practice, perfect weight, perfect face, perfect life. There was one big problem with this goal- perfection is quite impossible to reach. Living loved is hard, it took me 4 years from my lowest to finally figure it out. I was looking for a home in the world instead of a family in Jesus. there will always be things that will remind me of this hard time if I look for them but I'm not going back to that place so I refuse to dwell in it. You are so loved I promise you. "You are more precious than rubies..." Proverbs 3:15. this is me summer 2017. I may not be the skinniest and I'm definitely not perfect, but God has changed my life so drastically. If you feel unloved, or if you put a price to your worth- stop. You are worth more than any price tag could tell you. You're worth is not tied to your weight, grades, or popularity.LIVE LOVED, LOVE IN RETURN.
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okay so I know I formally said goodbye to Springdale High back in may on here, but now that I've been separated from High School for awhile now I thought it would be fun to do a recap detailing things I learned each year that have shaped me into me. This little gallery encases the very depths of Freshman year. I loved being a Freshman, it was in the halls of Central Junior High where I found my best friends, these people were my people and my people were so good. The memories I made with these people will last a lifetime. I also learned a lot Freshman year like what a solid group of forever friends look like and how cool it is to live life with the people you love. Sophmore year-aka the hardest year of my life. Leaving all my friends to go to SHS was the hardest decision I've ever had to make, it was such a different environment and I felt lost the majority of the year and to an extent I was lost. I no longer had my people in the same building but across the town and I missed them terribly. I spent most of my sophomore year lonely and my grades dropped pretty dramatically but what I remember most about this rollercoaster of a year was that it really made me grow, I'm thankful for this year because without it I don't think I would have ever grown to be who I am today. JUNIOR YEAR- Ok if I'm being honest junior year started off extremely rocky with a shoulder injury which ever so rudely wrecked my plans of playing volleyball in college, but it ended ever so greatly. Junior year I joined IB, I was involved in school, I was involved with friends and I loved loved loved getting to grow in my faith. Junior year was the year I FOUND Jesus and quite honestly the turning point in my life. These people above me are some of the greatest people I have ever met, they pushed me to learn and to love and to work hard, junior year: you were almost my favorite year of high school. S E N I O R Y E A R
okay if you couldn't tell by the quantity of pictures in this gallery- senior year was my favorite year. senior year I saw the prettiest places ( pheonix, Grand Canyon,etc.), saw my favorite music artists ( THE 1975, KHALID), went to my last games, played in my last volleyball game, finished IB ( didn't think I would to be honest) and loved my people as hard as I could. God worked so hard in and through me during my senior year and I have never been so happy. By the end of senior year I felt more confident, happier, and overall physically and mentally healthy ( for most of high school I didn't feel that way). GO SENIOR YEAR. okay so yeah I did the dang thing and chopped my hair. Here's why:
For years I put so much worth into my appearance, I wanted long curls, perfect makeup, and a perfect body. Now, perfection is not achievable so I bet you can imagine just how well that went. Anyways, I had made a promise to myself in 7th grade that I would never cut my hair until I was completely done with high school. I kept that promise to myself, however I no longer put my worth into my "ideal body" so cutting my hair was a fun project. It's been forever since I've had short hair so expect a lot of hair tutorials! ps. I know I didn't blog at all in the month of June, I apologize- more blogs will come in August hopefully :). |
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