Hi readers,
Today I feel numb. I sat at my little corner desk at my internship and held back tears as a read about George Floyd. George Floyd's story is recognizable because he was filmed. My heart is aching because while I relate to both my white and multicultural heritage I am torn. I am hurting. People of color die so often because of racism and yet I've had people tell me it no longer exists. Police officers-while not all bad- are not doing enough. Why didn't they stop the officer who killed Floyd? Why did they not arrest the men who killed Ahmed Arbery sooner? Why in the hell are people who I know justifying the actions of the policeman by saying "well you don't know why he did that" and "Well he could have been being violent" and "you dont know the full story" "my dad is a police officer and he would never..." the list goes on and on and on. I am hurting because racism is something I have grown up hearing about and seeing. I am upset because I feel the need to justify my outrage about the loss of human lives because a lot of people I know are okay questioning the reason why people of color are upset. Im angry because instead of being outraged about police brutality and innocent lives being taken, people excuse these outrages actions by throwing out words such as "Reverse Racism" "all lives matter" and "blue lives matter". Im mad because I logged onto facebook and saw a post that claimed we should be just as outraged about abortions. Im mad because protestors were tear gassed heavily while the people who protested not being able to GET HAIRCUTS AND WATCH LIVE SPORTS CARRIED THEIR GUNS AND WEAPONS AND PUSHED POLICE AND THEY WERE NOT TOUCHED. I am crying because so many people I love are black. So many people that I love are people of color and every time an innocent person of color is slaughtered I cry for their communities. I am multiracial. I have a history that runs deep and surely a long history of discrimination in those roots and I AM TIRED. I am emotional. I am nervous. I am upset. I am tired of people saying things like "I dont see color" because at the end of the day I want you to see me and know that my history is different than yours and celebrate the differences, I do not want you to ignore them. I do not want to be silenced. my heart is broken for all of the families who have said good bye to their loved ones in this century because racism still exists. I try not to be overly political on my blog but America, please-- we need to do better. America, please do something. I dont want to live in a world where I have to worry every time my future children go outside to play. I dont want to live in a world where I have teach my children all the things that they need to do when they get pulled over by police and pray that they are not hurt. I dont want to live in a world where I have to sit my children down and explain what racism is in kindergarten. I dont want to have to tell my kids that they will have to work twice as hard to get half as far because they are living under a system that aims to oppress them. I dont want to have to comfort my child after school - like my mother did with me- because children yelled at racist slurs. I don't want to have to explain ignorance. AMERICA PLEASE DO SOMETHING
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